When I met Diana, I believed I had found true love, who knew it would turn out this way?

There is a saying that the first 40 years of childhood are the most difficult in a man’s life. And, in general, it is not far from the truth. Modern male society is not as serious as, for example, their fathers or even grandfathers. The average thirty-year-old would never take on too much responsibility. Only when I found out my wife was pregnant.Only then did I realize that I had to start itching and thinking about something.



It is curious that it is the residents of large cities that do not take their direct duties so seriously. They want to visit green places, go to local parties to gray hair. Entertainment and no responsibility! While those who live farther and more victorious, on the contrary, seek to find a large and friendly family. But the first always lacks time and diligence, and the second – money. If it were the opposite, they would probably be happier.

I found out my wife is pregnant. My name is Abubakr. And I'm not a Slav. I am proud of my heritage and believe in the best. When I first came to the capital of a foreign country, it was very difficult. At home I had a very different order, not like here. That’s probably why I acted like a young man. Made a lot of mistakes and lost a lot of time. Unfortunately, the past cannot be brought back. But I will try to make sure that I am not ashamed of the future.

Where to go for a young and inexperienced person to get a job for the first time? Even without higher education? Of course, somewhere where the value is primarily physical indicators. And besides, about something more interesting, without the necessary acquaintances and connections, I would be foolish even to dream. So I went to work as a handyman for construction, and then I combined this kind of activity with the work of a taxi driver. But that's after a year and a half. When I made my first friends.



As I did not try, saved, worked hard, I could not collect at least some less decent amount. Almost everything went to food, shelter and everything. And it wasn't just me. But I was lucky enough to decide to borrow a lot of money and open my kiosk with flowers. The place wasn't running when I started renting it. But fortunately, several nearby streets soon began to be restored. That's what the stream of people carried through my modest booth with various plants. The business went on and I began to feel, little by little, what it was like to live in the middle class.

After a year and a half, my friends and I, who came from our hometown, had already developed financially to the point where instead of three stalls that had appeared during that time, we decided to invest in something bigger. Thoughts were renting one small building, consisting mostly of glass and concrete. This decision brought us even more money and the necessary acquaintances. So my next step was to have a full-fledged family, because, in theory, there was enough money for more.

That's how I met Diana. A local beauty and a very sociable girl. Which I thought we had a lot in common with. She called me a hot man, always touched my accent and in general, I would say that we had mutual feelings for each other. My friends, of course, warned me to be more careful in my relationship. I would rather choose a girl from our culture. But I didn't listen to them. Diana is smart, modern. With her, I could accomplish a lot. Not just the capital's residence permit.



Peels But, unfortunately, this was the case when a black streak began in my life. If I knew it would happen, I don't know. I would probably sell my business and go home. Things began to go badly and no longer brought in enough money. Partners also began to burn out, some even got into debt and not to those people with whom it would be possible to peacefully solve the problem. I once tried to flounder to avoid drowning. But Diana was putting all my efforts to rest. She wanted a full life, entertainment and clubs.

My friend didn't cheat on me, I knew it. But I was spoiling my nerves consciously. She loved how nervous I was about her constant new demands and challenges. It even got her started. But I couldn't do anything back. I couldn't say no, I could scream too. I couldn't even break up on my own. Because Diana's patrons kept a close eye on our relationship and worried that I would "hurt the girl." The fact that the girl herself could offend anyone was not even considered.



We finally broke up. Or rather, Diana left me when she realized she had nothing more to profit from. I even asked if she had ever loved me. The answer was just a cunning smile and rolled eyes. On the one hand, there was a bit of hurtful time and effort. On the other hand, I had more time and energy to continue my business, even though it was already working at a loss.

For the next 3 years I worked hard. I tried to figure out how else to find a source of funds for myself, so that everything was legal and official. At the same time, I started a relationship with my current wife, Safia. With her, everything started to work out. I'm older, more experienced. She was spiritually close to me, so she didn’t have to explain my aspirations, my goals, my behavior. I am very glad that we agreed with her, I only regret that not immediately. You should have listened to the countrymen, they would not give bad advice.



Peels In the end, I got my way. At 36, I had my own solid business, savings and even a small fleet of cars. Cars, however, are not that exclusive. But there are several. The prospect of the sea. A lot of people know me and not just people from the diaspora. I even saw my ex Diana a couple of times. I'm sure it wasn't an accident. It seemed like a dream come true. As they say, the time to collect the stones is now? Can you relax and continue to live a happy life?

However, no. When Safia came to me and told me that she was in a position, I could see what a sad, exhausted face she had. I asked what happened, why is she not feeling well? And the answer was what I've been feeling lately. But I was busy growing the business, and my wife wasn't distracted by that kind of thing. Anyway, she wanted to go home. Back. So that our child grows up and never feels hurt or hurt. I did not feel the pressure of the big city and oblique glances. Don't let anyone point a finger at him. Where is that possible? Only at home.



At the moment we are still in a foreign capital and are waiting for the birth of our first child. But I have already made all the necessary efforts. He almost agreed to sell his part of the business. Also got rid of extra cars at a similar price. He gave away some small things between reliable friends. There is only a little left and we will be on our way. I don't feel at my plate anymore. Tired. I will open a small restaurant at home, which I dreamed of since a young age. I'll live with my wife as I should. A quiet, quiet life. I don’t see a future for myself and my family.