Notes. day 383 Bashny.Net

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Today I'll be with you especially outspoken. I want you madly. But you went there, and I think that I want from you this even more. Some wildness or just my brain inflammation. When you're here, and I can just dial you at any time, but do not do it because you like the beach, - it is the type normally. In the same way as you do not call, when you think that you will disturb me or disturb my peace ... we have become accustomed, like two morons, cherish each other, because both together - in any way. Here's a irony. I've got used to it - you too. Only sometimes go crazy. Here today - especially. I did not help anything. No porn, though cool find, nor erotic, which has already become annoying, I wake up from what stroked his naked body in a strange house. I can not sleep, because any touch Quilt cover make me vibrate. I would have sex, of course, and calmed down. But I want is you. And it's terrible. Because you can not right now.

I would be especially outspoken. I do not know what to do with you. I do not understand why we each other did not let go. I do not understand the last time "why". You - one of the most misunderstood my "why". You and I have gone through so much, it seems to me, more than I just will not be able to give you. I no longer have the resources that were 5 years ago. I think I no longer can. I'm too tired.

I'll be frank with you, that you did not dream of. I dream of others. Aliens. Not home, like you. This is also ironic, agreed. And you have the same dream, not only my naked body and not my "wings", as you called my hands when I hug you. This is normal. I have not become jealous. As a general in this regard I have calmed down. And you - no. This I hear every time I tell you that today I can not, and tomorrow I can not ....

That's all from fatigue, I guess. Some perverted fantasies perverted thoughts, brains, feelings ... I want the sea. If everything turns out - very soon go away and get some at last. And if it does not - and will live between work in its concrete cage, stroking herself occasionally from fatigue

. And do not pay any attention. it's just today or tomorrow. and the next day, maybe, I'll do anything about it does not say. and you put Cuban music. as you like. most importantly, do not take me rum. I am tired to drink. and it is - too.